Man, what a strange year! Now, don't get me wrong, I didn't/don't think it automatically stopped at midnight....but we have put that culmination of the shit storm behind us. So many losses, including my last blood related grandparent. I'm okay with it though, the only people that will miss her are Saints, she was never very nice to me or anyone for that matter. I think we can all agree, it was a mixed bag for everyone. Part of me woke up big time and the other part went into a hibernation. Like a serious, waist deep depression....and I know I'm not the only one. I did a reading last night for a dear friend who had been going through the same thing. SO, let me set the record straight, you are a not a bad person who brought this on yourself, so quit beating yourself up, we all went/ are going through it together. Anything that had ever given me joy...drawing, writing, music, it all went by the way side and I became an unmotivated lump. I have not been unhappy, I was just.....there.
Last week Jade came on the show and sparked something though, let us know that it is possible to relight that fire within us all. Mine definitely needed to be reignited as there seemed to be absolutely no fighting or dissipating this black cloud that had descended on me. I rolled with it and made myself comfortable, seemed like a life time within a year. I figured it would pass and my passions would return on their own, but just like my body, with age, things don't bounce back so quickly anymore. You have to make a concerted effort, regardless of how minimal, to stoke the fires within.
Jade had started his band, Luna 13, so that his fire didn't die out and it has been working amazingly for him. He did it for himself and I have begun to follow suit. I started with a "DJ" session on New Years Eve because we stayed home due to illness. Whether anyone else enjoyed it or not, I loved it! I lobbed my headphones on and was couch dancing with every tune I "spun," (Youtube videos), on my Facebook page. I reflected on the conversation we had on the show the day before and I drew something, just a little sea horse, but it was something. A listener, after tuning in, challenged me on Instagram to draw something every day and I took her up on it. Not to brag, but I used to be very good and it was my escape...I plan on making it so again. I plan on holding dance sessions in my kitchen and getting back to writing. I invite you to join me! If you like to draw, the hashtag is, #witchesdraweveryday, if your thing is something else, make a hashtag and invite others. Things are supposed to lighten up for at least 6 months on the 24th of this month, so we need to get going now so when the clouds start rolling back in we already have our umbrellas and rain boots on.
I know it's been tough, strange and has put us all off balance, but we got dis shit! We are Witches and Witches don't roll over, we make friends with strange and invite it over for dinner do we not? Just because it's not the type of strange we're used to doesn't mean we can't overcome and not lose ourselves right? So, sing, draw, create, dance....whatever you love to do....DO IT! I know you don't feel like it, I didn't either....I mean, you see I've fallen behind on this blog...you have to force yourself. Feed that fire my Witches, show the world what you're made of and make it a beautiful place despite what's going on. Your spark is catching and you are beautiful, but more importantly, do it for yourself.
We love you!